GROUP WITH THE E
Ni Michelle Mae Simplicio
Polexia Aphrodisia, Estrella Star, Sapphire and Penny Lane…
You do not need to sleep with a band to become a groupie.
All you need to do is to fall in love with a person who cannot love you back and Viola!!!
Sign here…Sign there, thank you very much, Congratulations! You’ve earned yourself a label. —Now go ahead and fuck yourself…or something like that.
I don’t know about you but I’ve been there. That infinitesimal moment where nothing can go wrong even if there is a little self doubt that you might have miscalculated the steps but hell there is this burning shit inside you that says “hey, it’s cool…it’s safe , it will go your way” and the rest of the doubts disappear and the fear goes away and you know what’s left?
Just you and me, baby and nobody else matters. ..Yep, just you and that person that you love and care about. The music swells, the time stops and you get that perfect high as if you’re smoking some high grade weed.
But when the pleasure wears off and the bed sheets are changed, reality came right in, slapping you in the face. And you hear that Incubus song in your head…”The ride is over, did you enjoy yourself?”
—-And all that’s left is this one big orgy of his memories inside your head.
Para kang sumakay ng jeep na akala mo eh pabyahe ng Almar, pero ng makaupo ka na at nadukot mo na ang barya sa bulsa mo at inabot na ang bayad sa driver ay bigla siyang tumingin sayo na may hindi mawaring asta sabay sabi ng “Nova Bayan to” at lahat ng pasahero ay nakatingin sayo at napailing. Alam mo ang nasa isip nila—-ang tanga naman nung babae.
He uttered those words, those words that never fail to snatch the life out of me. Those words, which I actually wished were about me. But no. I was a substitute. I was a Polexia Aphrodisia. I was a Estrella Star. I was a Sapphire and I was a Penny Lane errr…no, let me rephrase that, I was a Lady Goodman posing as a Penny Lane.
Sa backstage, matapos ang malapit na engkwentro ng bandang StillWater sa hagupit ng kamatayan, nagusap si Rusell Hammond at Jeff Bebe.
“We never really hate each other, do we?” ang wika ni Jeff Bebe.
“I just can’t picture you with Leslie”, ang tugon ni Rusell Hammond.
“I’m the you they get when they can’t get you”, ang tugon ng magaling na singer sa kanyang lead guitarist.
So I guess that makes me the girl he can get when he can’t get her or while she’s “temporarily unavailable”.
Out story is like a much awaited, one night only reunion concert of a Revolutionary band but with no encore.
It’s hard to feel unaffected when I read his words. Here I am writing about him and there he is writing about her. I think I should stop using my commas and start using periods.
Wish I could say I am over you the moment I put my pencil down and start picking the crumpled papers on the floor…
But then I would be lying.
“…the girl I would trade my life just to see happy”
- boy
